I can't even begin to describe what it is like to birth a child and work extra hard to teach him only to have to one day just stop, and learn how to help him cope with losing it all right in front of your eyes and the only thing you can do is pray and give him medication to keep him from suffering. Within ten years i fed my child for the very first time, taught him to walk, talk, eat, do the simpliest of things, only to turn right around and watch him struggle to get back to where he come from. I have never been closer to anything in my life then my son, I knew what every sound out of his mouth ment.For ten years he wore diapers, I bathed him, and fed him. I'm so sorry but I have to stop.